Missionary Mode

Warning: This is more of a personal post, so don't read unless you feel you need to! I just had to let out my thoughts somehow, and felt that blogging about it would be a good way to start.

Today was the very last day I was able to talk to my best friend, Geoff, before he got set apart as a missionary. It's hard to go from texting someone almost nob-stop for a couple years to only being able to communicate through letters and email. But I knew this day was coming. I just didn't know how unprepared I was for it until now.

We skyped for a little bit tonight, right before he got set apart. And for the past few days, he has been so sweet to call me every night before I go to bed and talk for forever with me about the silliest things.

I never have been able to express mine and Geoff's relationship with hardly anyone. It's like we live in our own little secret world because I'm so scared of others judging me and what they might think of Geoff. That's pretty pathetic if you ask me. I mean if you care about someone so much, you shouldn't be afraid to express to others about your feelings. So that's why I am blogging about this now and not waiting any longer to talk about it or to not even talk about it at all.

No one will ever be able to understand why Geoff and I are so close. I guess that's another reason I never talk about us much. Unless someone is willing to sit with me for at least 10 minutes and hear me talk about our story non-stop, it's pretty pointless to talk about.

So, to sum up a really long blog post about why Geoff and I are so close, I guess it can be summed up in a few, hopefully-short, paragraphs.

Geoff and I are both the type of people that find it hard to express our feelings to others. At times where we may be acting happy, we really could be smiling to cover up our sadness or frustration. Geoff and I started to become really good friends right after his mom passed away from cancer. Not only did he have to go through that, but he also had to go through his dad getting re-married three months after she passed. It was a lot for him to deal with. I remember when I first was starting to get to know Geoff, we felt so comfortable around each other that we could tell each other anything. Geoff learned that I was willing to be a friend to him and be a shoulder to lean on in the hard times. And he was the same for me. It was crazy how fast we became so close. But I have never had a friend like Geoff, and I know Geoff has never been able to open up to anyone before I came along. This was all back in March of 2007.

Ever since then, Geoff and I have been close. Sure we have had our ups and downs in our relationship, but that's what happens as life goes on. We started "officially" dating as the day he turned 16 on March 3, 2008. A whole year after we became really good friends. But really, we starting holding hands before that and always hung out, so we were pretty much already dating! Our first kiss was 10 days later on March 13. We both agree to this day that is was pretty much the worst kiss ever! But hey, can you blame us? We hadn't kissed anyone else before! We have been able to be there for each other numerous times when things got rough. I distinctly remember numerous times when I was feeling down and Geoff was able to cheer me up.

I really feel so blessed to have Geoff for a best friend. We've been dating off and on for four years because we didn't know if we should be dating, or just friends, or what. It's confusing when the girl is two years older than the guy and the guy will be serving a mission eventually. But even with all the confusion, somehow we have been able to work out a relationship that makes us both happy.

Well, now after four years, Geoff's actually leaving on a mission. Pretty crazy how time flies. But I know he will be such a great missionary and change so many people's lives. I know this because he has changed mine for good.

I don't know what will become of Geoff and I's relationship. But I do know that God puts people in our lives for a reason. And sometimes you never will know what that reason is. But I definitely know why Geoff has been placed in my life and I will forever be grateful for it.

I hope everyone is able to experience a friendship like Geoff and I have. Unless you're married, they're rare to come by. I'm going to keep my head up and be happy even though I am sad that I won't get to talk to Geoff on the phone or see his face in person for two years, because I know that's what Geoff would want me to do. He makes me want to be a better person and be the best I can be everyday. At times where I have felt alone, I just remember all of the people that love and care for me and who want what's best for me. Once I do that, I can't help but strive my hardest at whatever I'm doing so I can be my very best.