Lesson Learned: just be happy!

This week at school has probably been the most stressful for me. Mainly because I cannot figure out how to do what I need to for my Web Development class. It is so hard for me! We have stuff due today... stuff that is worth more points than all of our other assignments combined... and I am going to bomb the grading and I'm just hoping and praying it won't make my grade completely drop!

I have gotten straight A's for the last 4 semesters, and I wanted to keep that record going. But with class that is ridiculously hard, I don't think that straight A streak will last much longer :(

Here are a few more reasons why this week has turned out into an awful one:

1. Biggest Reason: I woke up on Tuesday with a missed phone call and a voice mail. So I listened to the voice mail, AND IT WAS GEOFF. I missed talking to Geoff on the phone while he was at the airport going to Long Beach, California! He told me last week he wouldn't have anytime to call anyone at the airport, and so I wasn't expecting it at all. Basically I was a wreck all morning and didn't want to get out of bed! Also, I don't know his new address yet, and not being able to send him a letter this week (which I have had written for a week now) makes me super sad!

2. My tutor for my Web Development class bailed on me twice this week! And yesterday when he tried to help me, he couldn't figure out what was wrong with my coding. If he (who is a SUPER genius by the way) can't even figure it out, how am I suppose to? I don't like going into my teacher's office for help, because although I love him as a teacher, he just expects me to know the answer to every question he answers. Which yes, I should, but it's embarrassing when I ask him for help when I don't even know how to answer his questions. This is why I am doing so badly in this class!

3. I burnt my finger so badly yesterday, that my mac sensor pad that senses my fingers doesn't even recognize my finger as a finger! I don't know if that makes sense... maybe to mac users? But basically I use two fingers to scroll up and down, and I can't do that because my pointed finger is burnt! I have to now use my middle finger and my ring finger, which is just plain weird.

4. I think from all the stress I have had this week, my body is not happy with me. I go to bed not tired because I just keep thinking, so then I don't get enough sleep and am in a bad mood in the mornings. I haven't been eating like I should either, or drinking enough water, which is probably another reason why I have been tired a lot. I need to fix that!

Those are a couple of things that have made my week one that I never want to reminisce about ever again!

Don't worry, I am going to end this blog on a happy note!

I am working on a final for my photojournalism. I have to do a photo essay. My theme I chose is "Happiness is...", and a bunch of my friends have been helping me out by taking pictures to fill in the blank. Some of them are so good!

I think it was interesting that I chose this topic, this week, even though I have not been happy at all. I mean usually you do things that reflect how you're feeling, right? So maybe I was inspired to do this topic to help me find happiness in the little things.

So, you know all those reasons that made my week awful? Well, I have decided to turn all those negative things into positives:

1. I am grateful that Geoff cares about me enough to call me in the airport. His voice mail was short and sweet, 34 seconds to be exact :) and I'm sure he didn't tell me he was going to call me the day before because knowing Geoff, he wanted to surprise me. So I am happy that he wanted to surprise call me, even though his plan didn't turn out exactly like he had hoped. But the best part is that I have his voice mail still, so I can listen to him whenever I want! He said in his voice mail that he was "super happy", which makes me happy for him. I know he is the happiest he has ever been by serving the Lord. Oh how I miss that boy.

2. I have always known that we need to makes mistakes and sometimes fail at things in order to learn a lesson and grow. My straight A streak can't go on for forever... no matter how much I want it to. But even though my Web Development class has been really hard and stressful, at least I have tried my hardest and can't say I didn't try. I get and A for effort!

3. Ok I can't really think of a positive with having a burnt finger. Maybe... it has caused me to try things in a different way? That could work, or not....

4. I have learned from not eating how I should or sleeping well how important it is to put my body's needs before my school needs. I think my overall health, which I will be dealing with for the rest of my life, is more important than my school needs which only last a few years! I am going to work hard next year to be healthy and be proud of my body!

I am so glad that I have this "Happiness is..." photo project. It has made me really see how the small and simple things in my life matter the most. You will understand more of what I mean once my photo project is complete! I will put it up on my blog once it's complete on Monday!

So if you're ever having a rough time, don't let whatever is causing you to be blue keep you that way. "Don't worry.... be happy." I love being happy, and from now on am going to do whatever it takes to stay happy and have a positive attitude no matter what troubles I have to deal with.