Taking things for granted

I am pretty bummed that I wasn't able to watch General Conference yesterday, and I won't be able to again today due to work. Tonight I am going to have a General Conference marathon to make up for it.

Being here has shown me how much I take for granted. First of all, I have definitely taken church for granted. I will admit that I haven't gone to church in 3 weeks. I always have been able to go to church with everyone else I'm around, and it's so simple to go to church at school because that's what our Sundays revolve around, and the only big plan we have until maybe once church gets out. But since I work on Sundays now, it is so hard for me to get on the bus in the morning to go to work, get off back at my apartment after work, then two hours later do the same thing all over again. I hate the bus! Plus, I have to call for a ride 24 hours in advance for someone to pick me up from the bus stop to the church. This is probably not a good excuse to not go to church, but I do make up for it by reading my scriptures and reading out of the Ensign. I am soooooo excited to get back into a normal Sunday routine again and never have to take a nasty bus.

Secondly, I don't have the freedom to go or do whatever I feel like doing. I never knew how much I would miss having a car. A once, normal, quick trip to the grocery store is now something that has to be the main part of my day. It takes a good 3 hours total to take the bus to Wal-Mart, be there for an hour to wait for the bus to come back, and get back to my apartment. It's ridiculous! Also, the bus only takes us to places we need to go to, so all of the Disney parks, resorts, Wal-Mart, the post office, Downtown Disney, and a few other places that might be "necessary". I don't blame them at all, since I work for Disney and knew what I was getting myself into. But it just makes it harder for me to try and find other transportation to other places. Luckily some of my friends at work have cars, and I don't feel bad asking them for rides since they told me if I ever needed one to ask them. I still like to be independent and try not to ask them. But definitely if I had my car, I would have been able to experience so many cool things outside of Disney like the few I have already done.

Yes, those last two thing I take for granted are all thanks to one of my best friends, the bus. I can't wait until our relationship is destroyed once I leave.

Last, but certainly not least, I take time for granted. Time with friends and family. Time to just sit and ponder about life. I am always thinking about work, work, work, and right now packing and all that goes with it. I miss my time being able to chill at a friend's house and laugh about past memories. Or play a board game with my sister. And I miss my "me" time! I do have fun with my friends here, but it's not the same as it is back home and at school. I don't regret my decision to come here, and it's not like I could have prevented anything I have done, but I hope I don't regret not wasting my time... if that makes sense. I feel like I have lived my life to the fullest the last 3 months, but what else could I have done for myself spiritually and physically to help myself grow and become who I was meant to become? What if decisions I make today slows down that process for me? I guess I think about those questions a lot, but I think about them even more now since my freedom is limited.

All I can do is make decisions that I know will never lead me astray. That's why I love the Gospel so much... you can never go wrong with that being at the top of your life!

I feel like a missionary wearing my Disney name tag with my school printed on it. I get at least 5 guests a day telling me one of the following remarks: "You go to BYU?" "Your basketball team was doing amazing, too bad they lost that last game." "I know I can trust whatever you tell me, since you're a Mormon." "Thank you so much Kylie. You are by far the best Mormon I have ever met." I have to explain to most of those guest that there are 3 BYU schools, and I go to the one in Idaho. They are surprised there is more than one. I have had many interesting conversation with not only my guests, but also my coworkers. I am glad I can be trusted because of my reputation. Even my bosses tell me that they are grateful to have me, because they don't have to worry about me doing something stupid and calling in to work the next day not being able to come in. I hope I am being the best example I can!

10 more days here... just 10 more days until I won't ever have to ride another bus for hopefully a long long time :)